I found myself in relationships where control, manipulation, and physical and emotional abuse became normal. Drugs and alcohol became a way to numb what I couldn’t process.
After a series of hospital admissions, both for physical and mental health, I was fast-tracked into Ophelia House.
It took a long time for me to say yes to rehab.
But now that I am here, I am starting to learn about myself and how to deal with my emotions. Through groups and peer support, I am beginning to understand how trauma has shaped my life and beliefs. The community of women are supportive; we are all on a similar journey, so we help each other and work together as a team.
Recovery for me is about reclaiming myself. It’s about learning who I am beyond trauma, violence and addiction. I’m spending my time at Ophelia working towards life goals, including becoming ordained as a Buddhist. I’m currently a Mitra – meaning I am committed to Buddhism, and I’ve been able to study once a week during my time at Ophelia House.
Gender-based violence leaves deep marks, but it doesn’t define the rest of our lives. It’s early days, but rehab has helped me start to turn things around. I would say to anyone who was in my situation to try and be patient, give yourself the time and space that you need and deserve.
I now look forward to going back into higher education, perhaps buying my own house one day and being able to travel – and of course continuing in my recovery by attending NA and AA meetings.
I want to do more meaningful things with my life now and I can finally see the potential I have. But maintaining my sobriety is my number one aim, as I know it will make everything else possible.